Warning, Personal Post of Despair
It's been one of those days. No, maybe one of those weeks.
The kind of day where I can't decide whether lounging on the couch reading and daydreaming takes too little or too much effort.
The kind of day where thoughts of motivation from the morning shots of espresso are easily burned-away by visions of discouragement.
The kind of day absent of Grateful Dead, but filled with Leonard Cohen.
Yes, it's late February and everything is desolate. Maybe I can blame my mood on the weather. Or the light. Or the lack of sleep. Or the job market. Or the endless war. But I can't and I won't.
I'm ready to move.
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posted by BurdockBoy @ 10:44 PM
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12 Comments:
Where to? (That is what you meant, right--moving to a new home?)
Hope you're feeling better . . .
You're not alone. This winter is taking it's toll on me. We've been spoiled the last ten years or so making me forget what winter is all about. We got more snow yesterday and last night, about 5 inches total. Now it's raining.
I'm curious too, where will you move to?
Hey, I love Leonard Cohen. Great lyrics, but you're right, they can be rather morbid or depressing. And it is that time of year. Hope you feel better soon.
I think we're all feeling that way at this time of year. But of course the winters in N Wisco are about a month, or maybe two, too long for your average person.
You won't be feeling this way in a month, so does that help?
me too Quinn. I'm one of those who suffer in varying degrees from SAD. This year has been pretty smooth,but by late Feb. I'm eating too much organic chocolate from my stash and laying in bed reading waaayy too much.
I've a nomad spirit big time. I like to move every 3 years,much to the dismay of the rest of my family.
Maybe it's time for your next adventure?
Good luck... winter can make crazy sometimes.
Moving phyically or mentally? Maybe the Apostle Island energy can help a bit... perhaps not your soul-haunt, but still pretty magical. I think MY soul would wander about the south shore...
It sounds like a touch of cabin fever. It rustles through our town at this time of year. And if it's not...what's to despair? Change is good. Change is constant. Since change will come no matter - you might as well embrace it.
May you find that sense of "home" or satisfaction that you seek, but travel in good spirits, Burdock...it's often the journey, and not the destination that is important.
Hey, it's almost March!
Can you, um, make lemonade with your lemons? Like a little sledding action or something? Or does the drizzle ruin that?
Or how about renting "My Blue Heaven" and popping some popcorn? ("You could melt all dis stuff.")
Or maybe you've already snapped out of it...
m:
Thanks. As for moving, I'm not sure. We really are thinking about moving back to the Northwest this summer (BC, ID, MT)
Toby:
It's really the lack of real winter that's been bugging me. Cold and gloomy, but no snow or anything exciting. At least that's how it's been up here. We just got some, so now I can finally do some X-country skiing.
Carla:
I love L.Cohen too, but I was listening to Songs of Love and Hate-pretty gloomy. Famous Blue Raincoat is my favourite.
EL:
The winters are a bit too long up here, but our winter has been sooooo boring. We've like set a record for dry. Lake Superior is at an all-time low. Next month will be better.
Kim:
We're taking a small trip out to Idaho in a couple weeks so maybe that will help-a bit of change. The oving bug always catches me when I'm feeling a bit down. The lack of work has been really getting me down. That's really what is driving me to look elsewhere.
GTR:
Moving physically is definitely a possibility this summer. The job market just sucks up here. Meaningful work is very important to me. I still love the area and will always return to visit.
TFool:
It is definitely cabin fever, but more from the monotony and lack of work than the weather. You are right though, the journey is the key.
Andy:
March up here still means 2 months of winter. We finally got our first decent snowfall (the storms have been going around us). I am definitely going to do some xcountry skiing.I'll probably follow it up with coffee instead of lemonade. Though the lemons at the co-op today did look good....
I think I am starting to snap out of it. It's all about my outlook. Thanks.
One more... Good luck with the job search!! It is a huge challenge over there. I moved away from the south shore for that very reason. I gave up a so-so possibility in Ashland years ago for what was a "supposed to be good for my career" option in Nebraska... whoo. Had a hard time reconciling that one for a while. Even a so-so possibility in Ashland is a fairly rare thing.
Can I ask what kind of work you are looking for?
Ooops. Didn't mean to make it seem so pessimistic for you, just know what you are going through! I do know a few people who have really lucked out over there.
For some reason from your profile, I thought you were doing some sort of intentional simplicity homesteady thing, not looking for regular work (I'd be jealous, I think). But I know it can be frustrating to not be able to find something when you want it, and reminds me not to gripe too much about my own fairly lucky situation over here on the farther edge of the lake...
GTR:
I sometimes wish I was homesteading, but I relly enjoy getting out and working. I still plan on building my own earthen home and having a large garden, but I would still work.
As for the type of work I'm looking for. I don't know. I've done a couple internships in the environmental health field-my degree is environmental studies. I also love library work and have over four years of experience under my belt. But I think I would like to get a masters degree before I'd head back to a library.
I am very confuzed. I really need to do some reflecting and decide what I'd like to do and if I'd need any additional training. We'll see.
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